Heartbreak and Misery (Part 1)

DRAMA

“Say what?  You have to be joking.”  N.F. said, “no joke, she shoved a black walnut in her pussy and cracked it.”  I said “I just had a visual involving a dick in a vice”…I cringed. 






It was a cool evening on the last days of winter, a starry night in the Hudson Valley as the looming shadows of the Shawangunk Mountains lent a velvet patch of black in the horizon along the skyline.  

It was the night of St. Patrick’s Day and the conversation by the bonfire in back of the barn was hotter than the heat coming from the shooting flames in the pit.

I said “let me get the story straight, Glenda, Lucky’s other daughter from his previous marriage to Meg, had a ‘coming out party’ with her longtime friend ‘Butchy’.  

The party got wild and she put on a show, and the black walnut trick was one of the attractions.”  N.F. took a long sip from his mug of cold brew and said, “yeah, that was one of many attractions, but the announcement she made about her future shook Lucky up pretty bad.”

I said “wait a minute, isn’t Glenda married to Hank, the guy in the Army who is deployed to Afghanistan?”  N.F. eased back in the wooden lawn chair and said, “yep, that’s him, some kind of high tech com specialist with really mad computer skills.”  I asked, “don’t he and Glenda have a daughter?”  

“Oh Yeah” barked N.F.  I asked “So what does her coming out mean for Hank?”  N.F. said “that was the announcement, she’s divorcing Hank, except Hank doesn’t know it and she’s not going to tell him until he comes home.” I asked, “why now?” N.F. picked up the pitcher of brew and poured himself another and topped me off putting a little more cold beer in my mug.  

N.F. said “Hank is so good at what he does the Army offered him a big bonus if he reenlisted…he did.  Hank got over 16 grand and according to Lucky, he is going to use the bonus money with what he saved to get a home for ‘his family’ when he gets back from Afghanistan.  The joke is going to be he aint got no family.” 

I said, “is that why she left him, because her re-upped?” “According to Lucky that was the last straw for Glenda” said N.F. as he peered through his night vision goggles into the woods. I said “this is going to be a shock to Hank, to lose your wife and kid and then to find out she left you for another woman, it’s just overwhelming.”  

N.F. took another long sip and said, “Not really RJ, you see according to Glenda, Hank always knew she was gay.”  I sat up as the fire snapped and the smoke rose and I said “that begs the question, why did they get married in the first place?”

N.F. said “Glenda has a great job working for some kind of Defense Contractor somewhere in PA.  She couldn’t get that job unless she was married and Hank is some kind of kin to the owners.  She’s been there for about three years now.”  I said, speculating “does she think she will keep that job when her boss finds out she divorced Hank?”  

“I don’t know” said N.F.  “But Glenda is a freak in so many weird ways it’s amazing her life turned out as good as it did until now” said N.F.  “Exactly what are you getting at N.F.?”  About that time Lucky showed up on his Harley.

Lucky stood around the fire and N.F. recounted what he told me to Lucky minus the ‘nut show’.  

Lucky said that all he ever wanted to do was get his kids old enough to fend for themselves and live the rest of his life happy with no strings attached, but he said, “that’s changed.”  Lucky said, “I think, I’m gonna help Hank keep his daughter Lucinda, or try to get custody of her myself.”  

I said speculatively, “I guess you don’t believe your daughter can raise Lucinda by herself?”  Lucky said, “I don’t want Lucinda to go through what Glenda’s mom put her through.” Lucky’s face was full of disgust.  N.F. said, “this is kind of heavy, we can talk about something else.” Lucky said “I need to get this off my chest”.  N.F. offered Lucky a beer and he turned it down.  

N.F. reached into the cooler next to his lawn chair and pulled out a bottle of Jack Daniels Old No.7 black label which had been on ice.  Then N.F. produced a cold mug pouring a good four fingers of Jack into Lucky’s mug.  Lucky had pulled up a lawn chair and sat down as N.F. brought him his drink.

Lucky took a sip and picked up where he left off… “when I divorced Meg, it was because of what she did to Glenda.  I got custody of the kids in the divorce and tried my best to make sure that Glenda had a normal girls life.  I slowly got her into being active in church and school as the counselor and the psychiatrist said, and everything turned out OK, but I guess the scars were too deep.”  

I didn’t ask any more questions, I just listened.  Lucky laid it all out about what Meg did to Glenda. Lucky gazed into the fire and recounted the ‘incident’.  “Glenda was twelve when her little friends and her got hold of one of those playgirl magazines with big guys in them.  Meg was drunk when she found the magazine and confronted Glenda.  

The conversation got loud, Meg said she was going to ‘teach Glenda a lesson’ about being a girl.  


Glenda locked herself in the bedroom and tried to get out of the window, but Meg knocked down the door and grabbed her.”  I didn’t make eye contact with Lucky as I took a sip of beer but N.F. did and put his hand on Lucky’s shoulder (he was sitting right next to Lucky).  

Lucky just kept talking.  Lucky went on, “Meg slapped her around, choked her out, tied her hands to the headboard and went down on Glenda till she had an orgasm (Glenda had her first period a couple of weeks before the incident) then Meg used a wine bottle on her.  Needless to say that’s why I got the kids.”

Lucky continued, "neither me or Meg wanted the cops involved, family court had Meg see a shrink who said she’s a sociopath, CPS didn’t give me a problem and Meg knew better than to fight me.”  Lucky got quiet took a few sips and just closed his eyes for minute.  N.F. said to Lucky, “do you know when Hank is coming home from Afghanistan?”  

“In about 25 days N.F.”  I asked, “You don’t think anyone in Glenda’s circle would try to contact Hank and tell him what’s going on before he gets back to the US do you?”  Lucky said “I don’t know, why do you ask?”  I said, “I can clearly understand the stress he is under right now given the situation in that country, knowing this now could put him over the edge, he could become a liability to himself and his unit.”

Lucky said, “That’s a good point, but I don’t want to tell him anything, but if he finds out, then he is going to want to leave right away, his very heart is his little Lucinda.”  Lucky said, “I am worried about what Hank would and could do to Glenda if she tried to take Lucinda away from him or if he gets any interference from ‘Butchy’ if he attempts to reconcile, repair or salvage any kind of relationship with Glenda.  This is a mess.”

Lucky stayed the night at N.F.’s.  We all sat around the fire, keeping it going until dawn.  I gave Lucky some resources through the VA that he could pass on to Hank when he got back in country.  




Lucky went home in the morning after breakfast.  When I got back to Roscoe I made some calls and did some research about victims of abuse and coping mechanisms.  

Cracking a walnut with your vagina is not a trick at all, it’s a reflex  the condition of severe muscle spasms in the vagina is a response mechanism to rape or the threat of rape or violation.

Some women can spasm at will (a learned response).  I found out from Ellie, (N.F.’s wife) that Glenda had a few episodes with boys that Lucky doesn’t know about.  


Glenda had sex with a boy who wanted it rough, she had a ‘vaginismus’ episode that caused that boy to have severe bleeding from his penis (dick in a vice).  

Glenda was checked for all kinds of STD’s and was clean (she seldom dated after that) staying away from boys and getting very involved in Church and School functions.

What happens when Hank gets home from the war?   Look out for Part 2.


RJ