Saturday, February 2, 2013

The Delusive Phantom of Hope

"Shall we acquire the means of effectual resistance
by lying supinely on our backs and hugging
 the delusive phantom of hope,
until our enemies shall have bound us
hand and foot?"

Editorial / Non-Fiction

I’ve been reflecting on my life.  I see society failing to fix itself and depending too much on authoritarian forces (i.e. the government) to fix it.  

The only problem with that logic is that the government is more fragmented than shattered china after an earthquake.  

When my life, as insignificant as it is, and government intersect, I find myself reliving in vivid recall, my childhood.  It was all too overwhelming.

I was constantly steadied by the presence and example of strong men who didn’t duck or dodge, men who didn’t whine or run, but took the problem to its inevitable forum…direct confrontation.  I know, your asking what the fuck is he talking about.  I’m talking about when the law forces you to be a liar, a social outcast and a criminal, I’m talking about NY Secure Ammunition and Firearms Enforcement (SAFE) Act of 2013.

After reading the bill myself I found nothing in it that speaks to securing firearms but much to making your healthcare providers de-facto law enforcement officers, turning adversarial family members into government informants and making patriotic citizens into criminals if they don’t ‘register’ their weapons.

Anyone can read the Bill NYS S.2230.  It’s clear to me from reading the bill it was designed to disarm citizens, all of us.  Problem is good citizens would have no weapons and criminals would have a field day, this being the determination of Supreme Court Justice Anton Scalia in District of Columbia v. Heller. 

To quote Scalia, “We must also address the District’s requirement (as applied to respondent’s handgun) that firearms in the home be rendered and kept inoperable at all times. This makes it impossible for citizens to use them for the core lawful purpose of self-defense and is hence unconstitutional.”

But now, before the appeals, before the trials, before the law is tested out on some poor soul who has little or no resources to protect themselves I am propelled back to my childhood, when a rogue police chief shoved a gun in my Dad’s face and told him to move his ‘nigger hide’ out of town or he would kill him and us, his family.  The only reason that hate filled police force did not act because our house was full of armed men.

That this could happen in a small town in Nassau County in the early sixties is not what upsets me.  It’s that it can happen in any New York County in 2013.  Now the police don’t need the excuse that one is being black in public, now all they need is someone to file an order of protection against you and say, “he’s got guns” and the cops can kick down your door, disarm and arrest you.

I remember when a small hick town police department ripped up my application to join that force in front of my face.  I remember coming home as a Marine from Paris Island triumphant and resolved that no small town, hate filled with various evils, were going to keep me from my goals.  I came home again as a Military Policeman and a Law Enforcement Officer, proving again that the Constitution works for faithful citizens.

Now, the marginalization that went with racism, classism, ethnocentrism and all the other ‘ism’s” that defined the mid 20th century have come to revisit us in the Pandora’s Box that is a law created from anger, contempt and fear.  The problem is just having rifles described in the law even if ‘registered’ invites probable cause for search.  Now you live every day wondering when someone will come, kick down your door, take you and your arms away without seeing a judge.

Now, I have to decide to do as my Daddy did, stand in front of authority with an open threat on my life or fight this with the resolve I used to serve my country and enforce its laws when I was a younger man; or succumb to the delusive phantom of hope and be less than a citizen in the nation I took an oath to protect.

My Dad lived and died making life better for himself, his family and his neighbors.  Dad worked harder than any man I know for what little we had and have now.  Dad and his generation bought the promise of our rights and its freedoms with sweat and blood.  Dad and his generation are in God’s Heaven or on their way.

Daddy stares at me knowing exactly what I have to do.

RJ